maanantai 15. helmikuuta 2016

Lets get to know me

I'll tell you basic info first and then I ill answer some little unusual ones.

Basics:

My name is Taina.

I am from Finland.

I am 20 years old.

I am 167,5 centimeters tall.

I weigh about 57 - 60 kilograms.

I am at art school.

I have parents who are perfect for each other
and together they got 3 sons and 4 daughters.
I am the middle one.
We were born like this: Girl, boy, girl, me, boy, girl, boy.
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My hobbies are:
• Drawing
• acting
• singing
• streaming
• cosplaying
• Native America camping

My birthday is in march.
I was born 21.march.1995

That is basics.
Now a little more info. I found these questions ppl don't usually ask. Lets see:

1. What is one thing you will never do again?
I will never steal again!

2. Would you rather be twice as smart or twice as happy?
I would rather be twice as happy than smart.

3. What happened the last time you cried?
I felt unloved, lonely, ugly, like everything bad is my fault. I felt judged, and unwanted. That's what happened last time I cried.

4. What happened the time in your life when you were the most nervous to do something?
Something that I will never forget. Something that I did that I do not regret, but telling that would put me into trouble.

5. What would your parents be surprised to learn about you?
That upper one. 8)

6. What’s your worst habit?
Biting my nails I guess. Or scratching from places that for woman is not very ladylike to do. XD Idk. There is many bad habits I do.

7. What superpower would you have for one day?
I would like to be supersayan for one day. Just to try all their powers and being able to fly would be so cool. But Is that too much? Cause the question said superpower and being a sayan is not a superpower. I would like to have the power of shapeshifting.

8. What fictional character do you have the biggest crush on?
OHOHO! That is a hard question. I have so many of them. But I guess my choise would be Damon Salvatore from The Vampire Diaries or Vlad Pyrothunder from my comic Dragons Tale.

9. Where would you live if you could live anywhere in the world?
In very peaceful area with all nature and wild animals around me. No spiders thou. Calm and warfree area.

10. What is your most bizarre pet peeve? (For finnish ppl who doesn't understand what is pet peeve it means pretty much translated inhokki.)
My most bizarre pet peeve is that I hate the smell of vinegar.

11. Who knows you the best?
My best friends.

12. What after school activities did you do in high school?
Nnothing. Mostly just hang around at home.

13. What “most likely to” superlative would you be most honored to receive?
This is a tricky one. maybe when the one would say "I would most likely spend the rest of my eternity with you."

14. What’s the last book you really loved?
The Vampire Diaries. Very different to the TV show.

15. What was the greatest television show of all time?
The House.

16. What’s been your favorite age so far?
20. I like the way I have grown and understood about life at my 20s.

17. If you could go back in time, what is one piece of advice you would give your younger self?
Do not date certain ppl and do not go to those two places you did before you got almost raped.

18. What one thing would you be most disappointed if you never got to experience it?
Eternal marriage.

19. Apologize or ask permission?
Ask permission. Apologizing is not fun.

20. Unlimited love or money?
Love all the way!

21. If you knew you would die in one week, what would you do?
Spend the rest of my time with my friends and family.

22. What’s your most listened to song?
Oh no. I don't know. I listen too many songs. I guess it is Thinking Out Loud from Ed Sheeran.

23. Beach vacation or European vacation?
Definitely beach! I live in Europe. XD

24. If you could have been a child prodigy what would you have wanted to be skilled at?
I would have wanted to be skilled at understanding life better so I would act better when I was kid.

25. What’s the first thing you would do if you won the lottery?
Get the money. Then give a lots to it to my parents. Then to my best friends. Then to charity. And the rest of it I'd put to safe.

26. What celebrity would you trade lives with?
No body. I want to live my life my way. No paparazzi.

27. If you were a performing artist, what would you title your first album?
Wolfs dream.

28. What story do your friends still give you crap about?
Me as Bertholdt and the story of Bertholdt loving the lamp post at Tracon. Breaking up with it and coming back togeher. And the group bang.

29. If earth could only have one condiment for the rest of time, what would you pick to keep around?
English.

30. What is the ideal number of people to have over on a Friday night?
Not a number but the quality. I would have my best friends around.

31. What was the worst age you’ve been so far?
....... my teenage all of it.

32. What is your weirdest dealbreaker?
Nothing.

33. What fictional character reminds you most of yourself?
Nobody. No other fictional character has been like me. I can relate to some like to Haruhi Fujioka from Ouran Highschool Host club.

34. Do you believe in karma?
No. I JUST JOKE ABOUT IT..

35. What was your favorite TV show as a kid?
POKEMON!

36. What is the weirdest thing you find attractive in a person?
Bellybutton. But only certain kinds.

37. What Jeopardy! category would you clear, no problem?
Posonious spiders!

38. What is something you’re superstitious about?
Does gnomes count?

39. What is the scariest experience you have ever had?
Almost killing myself.

40. Who is a non-politician you wish would run for office?
Everybody else but those who are in charge right now. Minus the dumm ones.

41. What cheesey song do you have memorized?
Near, far, where ever you are / when my legs don't work like they used to before / kiss me like you  wanna be loved. I know many.

42. What one dead person would you most like to have dinner with, if it were possible?
Jesus Chirst.

43. Do you think it’s important to stay up to date with the news?
No. It just makes you sad on these days.

44. What is the best present you’ve ever received?
Love.

45. Would you give up one of your fingers if it meant you’d have free wifi wherever you go, for the rest of your life?
No.

46. What’s the first thing you’d do if you were the opposite sex for one day?
Check how much I'm stronger than my girl version. 8) and of course the willy.

47. If someone told you you could give one person a present and your budget was unlimited–what present would you get and for whom?
I would give allergic and sickness free life for my best friend.

48. What is the nicest thing someone could say about you?
I can't say. Or else someone would say it and it would not come from their heart.

49. Giant house in a subdivision or tiny house somewhere with a view?
Tiny house for the way!!!

50. What is the weirdest quirk your family has?
Idk. XD Our sence of humor? Does that count as quirk?

More questions that are listed in categories:

Great Questions for Anyone

Who has been the most important person in your life?
My mother.

Can you tell me about him or her?
She has taken care of me on my hard time. She loves me even thou I am somethimes very annoying.

What was the happiest moment of your life?
For now it was the day I got sealed to my family for eternity.

The saddest?
When I was at my best frends place and then I got a text from my little brother where he said that our dog Imppu had passed away. That moment still affects me.

Who has been the biggest influence on your life?
My best friend.

What lessons did that person teach you?
That not everybody reacts the same way and that even those who doesn't seem to feel anything actually feels just as strongly as you might feel like.

Who has been the kindest to you in your life?
My sisters daughter.

What are the most important lessons you’ve learned in life?
• Trust in yourself when you feel like something is wrong.
• Take care of yourself before of others
• Love everybody around you
• Do not give up on life

What is your earliest memory?
Me picking up my poo from my diaper and making floor and wall etc dirty from it. I CALL IT THE ARTIST ON EARLY LIFE.

Are there any funny stories your family tells about you that come to mind?
Haha. Many. I have heard this one story of me and my that time of a best friend and enemy that we were very silent and parents were suprised of this silence of ours. When they came to search for us they found us hiding under the kitchen table with Arnoldt doughnuts and we were eating the toppings from those. Only topppings. And they were surprised that we did not fight or bite  each other. We were in perfect peace eating them.

Are there any funny stories or memories or characters from your life that you want to tell about?
I have so many stories! When I was kid I used to ride this small red tricycle and we had this "riding area" for doing so. It was at this nice neighbor's house foundation. I also made a lots of mud cakes there. It was a playground to us kids. Nowadays there lives this horrible neighbor that keeps bullying my family.

What are you proudest of?
Of my comic Dragons tale.

When in life have you felt most alone?
Today. Few days ago. From two years ago.I can't tell those feelings apart. It feels like I'm gonna be alone for the rest of my life. I feel like I'm not good enough for anybody really. Ppl don't fall in love with me. I feel like I'm ugly. I feel like my personality is too weird for ppl. Especially for those I fall for. And every time I get these feels I feel alone. Lonely. Left behind.

If you could hold on to one memory from your life forever, what would that be?
I wanna hold on to my dreams that I see. Especially this one two days long dream that I wish I could see again. I was really small kid at that time. It was a dream of my imaginary friends.

How has your life been different than what you’d imagined?
I am way more worse than I imagined. If I would be there where I imagined me to be... I would be actress and married to Johnny Depp. Hahah.

How would you like to be remembered?
As a person who was different. Who gave happy times, happy memories.

Do you have any regrets?
I regret many things. I regret my first kiss.

What does your future hold?
Healing progress and positivity.

For your great great grandchildren listening to this years from now: is there any wisdom you’d want to pass on to them?
Think before you act but keep the fun.

What would you want them to know?
Life is not easy but it is made for enjoyment.

Friends or Colleagues

If you could interview anyone from your life living or dead, but not a celebrity, who would it be and why?
I would like to interview my chrush. Not gonna tell who he is. ;)

How would you describe yourself?
I don't know. I am messed up person with so much to give.

Where will you be in 10 years?
Hopefully still alive. Maybe married and one kid.

20 years?
Married. Few kids, animals, stable life and work of my dream.

Growing Up

Where were you born?
At Lohja.

Where did you grow up?
At my parents for my life. One home with huge forest around us.

What was it like?
The best and the worst of my life. More for the best.

Who were your parents?
The best parents I could get.

What were your parents like?
Mom is loving and gets very strict when worried. Dad is chill and the humor guy in our family but also leaderish when needed.

How was your relationship with your parents?
Always good. I am more close to mom than to dad, but I love them both very much.

Did you get into trouble?
Yes. Many times.

What was the worst thing you did?
I stole from this very big store with my that time of best friend under her manipulation. I felt like I would die on that time. And I felt so sorry. Then mom called me and I told her what has happened.

What were your siblings like growing up?
They were very different. But little similiar.
    In my eyes my oldest sister were fun and had lots of imagination at first, then she turned dark and closed herself from others. She said that I was air to her. Later we started to share letters with each other and got to know us little better.
    My older brother was into tanks and guns mostly. He spent in my eyes most of the childhood with my oldest sister and then later closed into his own things doing his tanks and shooting guns. Later his troubles reached my ears and made me really worried of him but I couldn't do anything.
    My older sister was very home close person in my eyes. She loved playing house and I looked her up to. She was pretty much annoyed that I followed her and stole attention that she deserved. But I really liked her. When she turned dark and close herself from family I got worried of her. And it hit me. I got scared of my dark time that was coming ahead. I am closest to my sister now. I talk to her the most these days.
    My little brother was the closest to me and we were always toghether as kids. We fought together a lot. He once tried to strangle me dead. He also tried to hang himself once but I didn't let him do that. We still jokely bully each other. We know each others secrets.
    My little sister in my eyes is very much like me. She is just a bit more princess than me. I liked to play with cars more than with dolls. She loves dolls. I love her very much and she looks up to me. I am her role model. I am worried of her growing up. I am scared if she gets bullied and I am scared if she gets deppressed like I did. I feel like I need to protect her.
    My littlest brother is very dear to me. He has these deep blue eyes, low voice and he is handsome. But he has temper. He can turn from sweetest and softest kid ever to this violent rampage kid. I feel like he doesn't feel like he is understood when that happens. I just wanna hug him. I wanna treasure him but I can't. That little monkey lives far away and I see him very little these days. And every time these kids see me they run to hug me.

What did you look like?
Like a fairy princess. With very blond hair and cute little smile. I don't have picture here right now but I can show you sometime.

How would you describe yourself as a child?
I was mostly kind and adventurous. And then the visitors came in. I turned into monster. Clinging on the feet, stalking, loud talking and eyes shining like I have found amazing new toy.
I liked to play different games as kid and I was horrible at losing. I started to cry so easily.

Were you happy?
As a kid from 0-9 yes.

What is your best memory of childhood?
When I got my first ds for Christmas and Nintendogs game in it. I loved it so much I named my first dog who was girl Topi that is boy name. I still love that dog.

Worst?
I was bullied at school. My ex best friend and five boys beat me up in the hallway kicking me when I was on the floor. Teachers did nothing and I didn't tell my parents.

Did you have a nickname?
No. If you don't count names that ppl called me. Stinky, ugly, bitch etc.
Later on age I got name bird cause I was able to make bird sound and other sounds.
And a little later I got the name Tainuli. Also some ppl know me as Bert, Bertl, Bertholdt or Pertti.
I gave myself a nick name Taida and Smalderhalderfan.

Who were your best friends?
I had many best friends. From church there were two that I played separately with. Then there was one from my kindergarden age. Then this one that was my foe and enemy. I had one best friends that started treat me horribly. Later I got two friends from school that was with me even thou other bullied. And now I have a group of best friends. :)

What were they like?
Most of them funny and kind and playful. These days very different. From silent and deep to crazy and fun.

How would you describe a perfect day when you were young?
Waking up myself, having breakfast, playing the games I like the whole day. Eating dinner and going to bed after evening rituals.

What did you think your life would be like when you were older?
Fun and you can do whatever you like.

Do you have any favorite stories from your childhood?
I went to this forest one sunny day on this huge rock. Took a nap there and woke up a huge moose walking past. I stayed very still looking as it kept going until it disappeared and I ran to home.

School

Did you enjoy school?
No.

What kind of student were you?
I did what I were told to except homework. I did well at exams

What would you do for fun?
Play with my ds and computer.

How would your classmates remember you?
Crazy, the one they bullied, the different one, friend, the annoying one. Or something like that.

Are you still friends with anyone from that time in your life?
Yes I am.

What are your best memories of grade school/high school/college/graduate school?
Grade school: I was best at shot put.
High school: Japanese lessions.
College: old time dances.

Worst memories?
Grade school: bullied to depression.
High school: bullied for growing and trying to understand own sexuality.
College: the amount of loneliness.

Was there a teacher or teachers who had a particularly strong influence on your life? Tell me about them.
I had this one teacher that I once called mom. One day she yelled at me when I was happiest and after that I was traumatised and never talked to her again.

Do you have any favorite stories from school?
I was filming a short video that lasted 5 mins. It tells about this girl who tries to figure out what she will be when she grows up. The best part filming the video was the homeless part. I got to do the make up on me and put on this big black sack.

Love & Relationships

Do you have a love of your life?
Yes. Vlad! Nothing beats my own character. Haha.

When did you first fall in love?
I don't know. It is hard to say. You can love somebody, has a crush on somebody and be in love with somebody. I don't know have I been in love for real. I love 
this one guy so much that it hurts to think about it. We have never been together in a relationship.

Can you tell me about your first kiss?
Sure. It happend on this scertain lunch break when I was 13. We started too fast. It was slimy, disgusting, made me want to puke. It lasted long but ended fast just like it was started. He didn't know how to kiss even thou I thought so. It was pretty much pushing the tungs in and out one at a time. Yugh. After that it took very long time before I wanted to kiss with a tongue again.

What was your first serious relationship?
My last one. Even thou the other side didn't feel the same way.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Deep chrush at first sight yes.

Do you ever think about previous lovers?
Yes. Many times.

What lessons have you learned from your relationships?
Do not rush. And prepare yourself to get hurt. )':

Religion

Can you tell me about your religious beliefs/spiritual beliefs?
I believe in god, his son Jesus christ and holy ghost.

What is your religion?
Church of the Jesus Christ Latter day saints.

Have you experienced any miracles?
Yes many.

What was the most profound spiritual moment of your life?
At my last E.F.Y where I learned my spiritual skill.

Do you believe in God?
Yes.

Do you believe in the after-life?
Yes.

What do you think it will be like?
As god wants it to be.

When you meet God, what do you want to say to Him?
I love you.

Serious Illness

Can you tell me about your illness?
I have depression.

Do you think about dying?
Yes. Too many times.

Are you scared?
No.

How do you imagine your death?
Hopefully peaceful.

Do you believe in an after-life?
Yes like I told you before.

Do you regret anything?
Many things.

Do you look at your life differently now than before you were diagnosed?
Yes. It is darker for me even thou I want it to be colorful.

Do you have any last wishes?
I wish ppl would be happy after I am gone.

If you were to give advice to children to come in our family, what would it be?
Never give up on life.

What have you learned from life?
It is a gift.

The most important things?
• Live for happiness.
• Love unconditionally.
• Never give up.

Has this illness changed you?
Yes. It has made me appreciate life more. Also made me feel bad even when I don't have to.

What have you learned?
That depression doesn't go away with a snap of fingers. You can't walk it off.

How do you want to be remembered?
This question was before right?

Family heritage

What is your ethnic background?
I am half russian half Finnish.

Where is your mom’s family from?
From Russia.

Where is your dad’s family from?
From Finland.

Have you ever been there?
I live in Finland. Never been at Russia.

What was that experience like?
Nothing special. Cool.

What traditions have been passed down in your family?
I guess the funerals? I don't know. It's more like we are creating them.

Who were your favorite relatives?
My grandma and grandpa from daddys side.

Do you remember any of the stories they used to tell you?
Grampa usEd to tell his hunting stories and wanted us to be part of that. Nope I ain't gonna kill animals.

What are the classic family stories?
Native american camp stories.

Jokes?
Kuha jokes.

Songs?
None.

That's it folks. I am done. Took the whole day to write this, but got it done. :)

Smalderhalder out.